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November 29, 2009, 11/29/2009

♥ Chérie ,
Je ferais n'importe quoi pour vous de vous voir sourire .

Je m'ennuie d'être dorloté dans vos bras .
J'aime la façon dont vous avez eu vos doigts entre mes cheveux en désordre .
Je m'ennuie du temps nous avons eu ensemble le plus .

Personne n'a jamais fait cela pour moi avant .
Seuls vous , et personne d'autre .

J'ai raté tout de toi et moi .

Je chéris les temps et moments que nous avons eues ensemble ,
Vous ?

Ask me for the meaning of my entry of the day if you are interested to know (:

November 28, 2009, 11/28/2009

This might most probably end up being a 'LOL' kind of entry .

So .. Continue raeding if you want to ! :D

Or you could stop here .

I feel wierd & i've got many many thoughts today .

While facing a piece of drawing paper , holding a pencil on my hand ,

I thought about myself and discovered many problems .

( That's not suppose to be the way la , i planned to draw . )

When it comes to love , i think i am selfish .

I want everything which i can get , from you .

Especially your time (:

I want everything , & i want you all to myself .

( & I realised it's because of that , you tend to get really impatient with me ,

& thus the both of us have emotion changes . )

I want you so much , but i'm too stubborn to tell you .

Not that i expect you to be by my side for 24/7 all day long la .

& it's not necessary for you to be by my side anyway (:

I just hope that you'd always be there to keep me entertained ,

Whenever possible .

And you'd always be there to listen to my rants , cheer me up :D

( Ya right , who'd sit with me 24/7/365? Its so boring , its so 'no life' ! Agreed ? )

Sometimes , i dont care whether you're bored or not .

( Because i'm really stubborn ! )

I may have troubled you , disturbed you or even interupted you .

But i really wish we could have good chats like before (:

It's not hard to get it done , please ?

( I mean , if you feel for me , you won't mind spending a little time on me , right ? )

I want someone who'd never leave me , EVER .

Like someone who'd accept me for who i am , a really really bland and boring person .

Someone who'd never spend more than a minute looking at other girls .

( I know that's like , impossible -.-)

Someone who'd accept me for my ugliness and stuff .

Or even better, find beauty in every single thing i have , like ... My face xD

Someone who thinks that i'm not bland & not boring at all .

I need you so badly , but i dont say a word to you on this .

I dont know it is the pride barriel or something , it just gets in the way .

Or maybe i'm shy(?) or im afraid of awkwardness or something .

I dont know , i think i make myself sound weird .

And that's why i DONT REALLY like to initiate online conversations .

( To you , i just can't stop myself but to be the ice-breaker . )

Same applies for sms .

But sometimes , i want you to talk to me .

So much , so much . But i dont say it out .

And thats why i'm good at waiting . So good that i can wait without complaining .

I wait for things to happen , like , for my phone to vibrate ,

Be it it's a missed call or a short and simple sms .

I'm waiting for you to initiate the conversation of the day .

I know the day surely come . It's just that i do not know when .

I want so much , but i'm afraid to ask . I think i'm really wierd .

I spend alot of my time wondering what happened ,

What have i done that things changed ,

WHY IS IT THAT I ONLY REALISE ALL THESE THINGS NOW !

I hope that it's not too late . I want to 'repair' this .

But actually , when i think about it , i had you .

But you got sick of me , i guess .

( I'm so selfish to want to have you all by myself that i caused you to get tired with me .)

See ? I'm not a nice person .

I'm the selfish person who ask for so much from you .

But come to think about it , i dont deserve to get what i want .

I'm sorry , and i hope it's never too late to start over again (:

I shall wait for miracle to happen .

I ♥ you , yes i really do :D

I just dare not say this out , to you .

Poof , i've finally let down the stone in my heart :D

I spend the time , the effort to type all the entries out word by word ,

Letter by letter . Please respect me , my words , my entry , my blog .

Just can't be bothered by those who copy .

Those who copy my entries , are just like duplicating my emotions and feeling ,

Into themselves , their entires and their blog .

Go on , find a way which suits you in terms of expressing your emotions (:

Thanks alot :D

November 25, 2009, 11/25/2009

I know i'm not that 'great' in the sense of being able to fulfil everything .

But atleast , i'm learning :D

I may be bland , normal and perhaps not even up to average ?

& Although my life's a horrible , unlucky and boring drama .

At times , i still have to be grateful that im actually also wonderfully blessed in other areas ,

Which some people out there , may not be able to get .

And that i have got you !

* Inserts a big , all smile picture of YOU here ! :D *

I'd like to replay the period of time when we just got to know each other ,

Starting to know more , started killing time at a super-ultra wierd place ,

And when we just started being together :D

Those time were so real yet unbelievable .

Sometimes i wish i could replay everything whenever i want .

Because i want to re-enjoy every single thing all over again .

It's really interesting about how 2 strangers could end up being so close to each other .

Those time will continuously be flashing in my mind .

Till memory fails me ♥

Things are just like depending on the other party so much , so much .
That we don't even know we can't get used to not talking to each other for even one day . Sometimes , this dependency on the other

Gets so strong it becomes a form of attraction .

Maybe we're just like that :D

"Nobody could have made me feel this way,

Every single moment with you is priceless.

No moment of hesitation, you made me smile.

Even if its a moment of apprieciation.

A sense of being loved, from the heart.

Treasure now. For we not know what brings tommorow."

-Unknown , ( Deviantart )

机会是自己争取来的。。

现在我必须学会怎么样去珍惜它 :D

祝我好运，哈哈！

爱你们哦，晚安 :D

November 22, 2009, 11/22/2009

Have i shared this picture with you people before ?

It looks like my teddy's back view ! ^^

Ahem , thanks ! For opening my eyes .

Seeing that you're what i needed :D

Tonight's gonna be a good good night ! <3

I love you , you , you and you you you :D

HEARTS ALL OVER THE WORLD TONIGHT :D

<3 ~

Sweet dreams ! :D

November 17, 2009, 11/17/2009

That's Linda in blue .

She's extremely nice . But the only thing which most people couldn't take it about her ,

Is that she really talks alot , alot !
I don't know whats with her whenever she talks to me .

She'll always be crying while having heart-to-heart talks with me .

Perhaps thats the power of me xD

I almost cried just now while forcing them down my throat .

Almost , really .

Even though i was given sugar , which is something sweet ,

It was still really , really , really bitter ,

Still .

It seemed to be worst today than yesterday .

Woke up at 4am just to vomit twice .

I am not recovering at all !

Can't help feeling weak watching mummy cleaning up the mess i've made .

I'm sorry ...

Now that flu is attacking me , suckaaaaa !

Now that i finally agree that sleeping is a waste of time .

You won't know what will happen next .

你是我认识的那个人吗？怎么会有种陌生的感觉？

是你变了吗？

November 16, 2009, 11/16/2009

Oh please respond to this !

I'm so gonna get an incentive meal treat by him !

( Must zoom in when you enlarge the pict ! )

RESPOND AH !

-Working with XY really makes me get crazier .

-Working with Uncle Freddi fixing the lego was fun !

( Ah-ha , he kept giving the wrong instruction thus making him and us , redo ! )

I'm sick sick sick .

Was being given 7days MC again .

But i asked for 3days only instead .

Feeling kinda .. Regret taking only 3days .

Awwwwwww ~

2012 , anybody ?!

Some people like you should just bang the wall and die .

I hate this feeling . Suckaaaaaa !

( I'm glad that my "Student" still remembers having me as his "Teacher" ! )

*Inserts many many many smiles !*

November 12, 2009, 11/12/2009

我应该是坏还是乖？

你喜欢彩色或黑白？

你的笑代表拒绝，还是等待？答案我解不开。

我应该被动或耍赖？

你喜欢高山或是海？

或许爱来得太快。。。

Sometimes there's nothing we can do about , but live with it .
- RNLZ :D

November 10, 2009, 11/10/2009

Dear readers , i'm back after so long :D

So how's life , people ? Anybody missed me ? There must be some :D

I've been ocupying myself with things to do , to make myself busy xD

Fun , i like it . It is always better than wasting time all day long .

Ah-ha ! This entry is going to be long .

Nope , it's not going to be wordy . But .. Quite a number of pictures , yeah :D

I shall cut short this entry . I am so going to fast forward xD

Here comes the pictures ! :D

@ Godwin's house ! :D

Junk food ! xD

Godwin & Peizhi can cook ! :D

I'm so in love with his dog , Rocky ! ^^

Ah-ha ! I love it cause it responses to me whenever i call his name ,

But it doesn't care when Godwin calls for him xD

Boontien , you shall organise a "CALL FOR ROCKY" competition :D

When doing the $2 per Lego brick thingy :D

See the grey piece of thing there ? It must be filled with RED legos ! :D

Help people , help ! :D

Killing boredom xD

On the train , going home . Nice tee there ! :D

Home-sweet-home !

Today @ school ! :D

That's celest with her no .1 , 2 , 3 , 4 & 5 shot !

That's me & my no 1 , 2 , 3 , 4 & 5 shot !

That's Linda with her shots !

Taking picture can really kill boredom & time , manzxz ! :D

I'm not alone ! Here comes Linda ! :D

Haha ! Vandalising your own hands too , kill boredom & time !

Anybody wanna challenge me ? I can now dig a bigger hole ! :D

Dong tian & my texts xD
He always think of something really very off and stupid all the time !

Iphone leh ! Msgs i sent is in green ! :D

You guys may or may not be able to reach me tomorrow .

Let's just take it as me taking a break from my computer , and handphone . :D

Must must must miss me , okay !

I'd be sure to able to sense some people missing me ! :D

我讨厌被赶走的感觉。我讨厌被逼离开的感觉。

或许是因为这样，我学会了自己先离开。

不需要你/你们开口。

-RNLZ :D

November 05, 2009, 11/05/2009

Let's see if my dad is willing to hire someone like him ,
And kind enough to offer him a job after his ORD :D

Well , let's get started .

Don't ask me why am i being so pessimistic these days .
I'm just making sure of myself . It's gonna end soon :D
Yeah , i'm not a pessimism . HAHA !

Hey dude , i hope you'd get what i mean after reading this ...

You’re like a monkey bar that i held on tight .
It was fun at first just hanging there , feet far off the ground .
Pretty much enjoyable , i like :D

But then i started to get blisters , and my hands they started to sweat .
This is when the time is tough ,

& i'm being concious about not letting my hands off .

And i started to slip . But i continued to hold on .
Adjusting my hands to make them stay .
Because you once again appeared , and gave me the strength to go on ! :D

But eventually I figured out that it really was time ... To let go .
I know i can't hold on any longer . I know it's time to let go D:

Here's the process of everything .
Here's is what that stays in me for the rest of my life .
Here's what that's being recorded by me , myself .
And here's the pictures i took of everything , with my eyes and heart .

That sums up everything , dude (:

My latest update on twitter :
" All i ask is never to be replaced , promise ? (': "

Sigh ~ Yet , there's nothing i can do about it ...

But to face it .

No worries , I'M RENGIE THE GREAT ! :D

November 03, 2009, 11/03/2009

In this picture , half will go & half will stay .

Chee Hao & Benjamin stays while Xinyin & I go .

Goodbye 2INTEGRITY , Hi 3GRACIOUS .

The one who loves the least , controls the relationship .

Here is something to think about .

At a point of my life , it seemed like

"The least interested i am to a guy , the more interested he is in me .

The more i care about him , the least he'll care . "

Which also means .....

"If you like him more than he likes you , you'll get dumped by him" .

"If you dont like him as much as he likes you , he'll go crazy over you ."

I hate to be vulnerable in a relationship .

& that should explain why i'm talking about this .

I tend to always try to make myself distant and unavailable ,

& shows the "I-DONT-CARE" kind of attitude .

But deep in my heart im yelling "Yes , yes i care so much so much ".

& I hope that in a way or another , you'd know ...

And yeap , few weeks ago , i'm feeling this way again ...

This time , there is something different :D

I dont want to be the one who cares more .

( I think it's the fear of losing someone .)
Yet ,
I want to experience the feeling of really liking someone .

( Yet i can't do it because there's still the fear there. )

Please be more promising that i could actually believe in myself that I CAN DO IT .

It's so contradicting !

Go google on :

"The one who loves the least , controls the relationship".

Look into the forum ! It's true ! Haha :D

So how ? What am i suppose to do manzxz ....................

- Put in all you (I) have and constantly fear that he'll leave you (Me) one day ,

- Or act like you (I) dont care and never get to experience the pleasure of giving ?

Hey MONSTER(s) , let's talk :D