Shall wait for yen to get home & send me the pictures then .

Yeahs .

Steffi drew something on my leg which is like oh-so nice !

Yeahs .

Yen , your really leaving ):

I'm not at fault okay ! Go think properly bah . :D

此刻你已真的永远离开我, 在另外一个没有我的世界.

All I can say is , today wasnt a good day .

I should not have listened to Eve to leave school at that time .

I'm still not ready to face him yet .

I can't help but to GAMAFHAP .

But , it doesnt help . Nothing was done . Things werent changing .

Should I listen to my dad ? He went to apply for Arts School .

He thinks that i couldnt make it .

Well , now that i'm still saying no to Arts School ,

I've quitted Piano . There's no point of me getting there .

I'm serious .

I've made the move (:

Well , Maths lesson was very fun !

Yeah , Galen should really think before he writes =X
Yeah man , there really is a special link between algebra & I .

Yeaps . Enough of school .

& Chinese is no kick for me . I got the highest =X

Woohoo . So , do you think that the smart smart RENGIE is back now ? (:

Yeahs , though there is something that is troubling me ,

Though i may get affected easily by somethings ,

Though i am not moving on ,

Though i still wihs to be updated about it ,

Though imy ,

When it is time for me to be serious ,

when it is time for me to concentrate ,

When it is time for me to not think about it ,

I learned not to . (:

I'm going to make myself stay here in Northbrooks !

That's my goal of the year ! :D

Which one belongs to LZ ? Which one belongs to FEL ?

I think , it is not going to happen .
Oh wow , i'm such a weakling .
Oh , whatever .

I passed my maths test . I was supposed to be happy aint I ?
But , overall , for this 2 months , my maths is a C5 .
Well , 59.4 =.=
Come on , i know i can do it .

Oh , during reccess time , Gallen & I stayed in class to do homework !

LOLOLOL .

Someone with good English standard doesnt have to redo .

While he needs ! I was laughing dan loudly when Singh ask him to redo .

LOLOLOL .

Well , i was damn satisfied with my English result since last year .

No doubt for this year too .

Honestly speaking , i dont wanna leave Northbrooks .

Well , i really have to work hard then .


After school , played the soccer thing with
Evelyn , Sharon , Erwin , Kiaseng , Zarny , Patricia , Linda & many more .
Well , i was having fun (:
Enjoying it . & I wasnt even thinking about what was in my mind .
Well , i guess , i wont be able to talk tmr .
Mr Yong snapped pictures of us playing it man -.-

But the chat didnt last long .

I ended up crying just because of your reply .

Why is this happening to me .

I thought , that the time for me to be happy was here .

But i really dont know how on Earth dd i ended up crying ..

Your replies still matters so much to me ..

I'm sorry for what i've said .

How is this ? Turtle & Tigger (:

I had badminton training from 3-6 .

Then after that , i went down to the canteen to have my dinner

& Yup , the camp start le lor .

Badminton was alright until Belle hit my op place lah ! O.O

Belle ah , next time xiao xin yi dian hor , hen tong leh ! xD

Haha .


Well , the purpose of the camp is to final the moves for the fancy drills

& silent drills .

DANG =.=

From next week onwards , we have to report to school in FULL-U

Till the Drills Competition is over . zZzZzZ ~

We did drills & thr MR BEAN dance ! :D

Yeah man , that's what the GB girls love to do .

(Go to youtube & search for Mr Bean dance if you dont know what is it .)

Hmm , showered in the staff toilet . Damn cool !

Went into the boys toilet to explore ..

Hey girls ! The boys toilet is better than the girls toilet -.-

LOLOLOL .

Oh , we celebrated Samantha KOH's birthday !

Not bad uh , cool !

Then had supper ! Our supper damn nice .

BBQ-ed chicken wingssssss !

LOLOLOL .

I saw your saliva dripping .

Then went back to the study room .. & sleep lah !

Some toot just cant be bothered to reply my messages .

Ah , let's not talk about that .

Okay , we're supposed to wake up at 6.30

But all of us lazzzzzzzzz around and only wake up at 7 !

LOLOLOL .

I heard from Sharon that ...................................................................................

A cat drawled into our room !

Ma'm YuLing saw it too ! Oh-Em-Gee ...

=.=

Then , drills for the whole day .

& Home Sweet Home @ 4 .

"姐姐，我要跟三姐拍照!"
LOLOL .
This is the first time the two of them take pictures tgt siah .
How cool can it be ?


Anyway , i saw this on Tiffany , actually , Gillian's friend's blog .
& Yeah ,
Kiss/Nipple : Peck of love
Boobs : Shape of love
Penis : Shape of love
Pussy : Depth of love
Ass : Base of love
Testicles : Weight of love
Fuck : Experience of love.
Suck : Taste if love
Masturbation : Substitute of love
Condom : Care of love
Sperm : Cream of love
Marriage : MISTAKE OF LOVE
You get it , don't yah ?
Whoa , a boy who doesnt even know what does 'Financial Support' is ,
Is now a father of 1 -.-
Brainless guy . =.=

; YOU

How about this ? I will only talk to you when you need me .

Since you doesnt even bother to reply messages ,

who knows if you DONT EVEN BOTHER to read .

It seems that your vocabulary is really limited when talking to me .

You should be happy now , cos' from now on ,

I WONT TALK TO YOU TILL YOU NEED ME .

就算你看见了，请你，当着什么都没有看见。


Never have I felt this way before & Never did I realise that I was this useless.
无条件的付出, 却收回的只是...
一颗破碎的心.
Utterly... Broken...

誰和我一樣 等不到他的誰?

So what if I do ?

I dont feel happy . Not at all . I shouldnt have gave up on Piano ..

I really shouldnt have gave up ..

Why is it that problems must come one after another ?

Once the previous problem is over , immediately , the new one comes .

I didn't give up on myself .

Because i believe that I can .

Maths test today aint good at all . Yes , i want a pass .

But not a just pass . I need to set a goal for myself . I really have to .

I dont wanna miss my last exam which is supposed to be on this september ...

I wanna finish it off & concentrate on other things ..

But , what a silly decision ..

I missed it .

I really feel like crying my unhappiness out .

I wanna talk to someone . I have to talk to someone .

I used to know very clearly , everyone around me is always there for me .

But what happened now ?

Sighh-nessss ..

Where is my **-***** ? Where is my Sissy ? Where is my Yen ?

Sissy & J , please stop ignoring each other ..

I dont know why those who knows what is the reason ,

doesnt want to tell me !

Will it hurt you even a little for letting me know ?

What's wrong ?

10minutes ago , i cried . Now , i'm still crying .

I know , who cares .

Everything was really going on very very very smoothly !

But why do i feel so ***** when X XXX XXX ?

I was supposed to be happy , ya'll know ?

I'm not going to touch the piano anymore from now .

Till the time is right .

Sissy , sorry , i can't help you for this year .

Does it help to make me feel better ?

Uh-huh , went to school in the morning . Yeah , my body is cramp-ing -.-

LOLOLOL .

This morning is super duper uber boring canzxz ?

I was trying to keep myself awake for the whole of today .

But i nearly knock my head against the table and go zZzZzZzZ .

Ok ok , lesson is really damn bored canzxz ?

I learnt that there is maths test & history test tmr .

Aiyah , sure pass . But it may just be a .. Just pass kind of thing (:

Better then failing right ? (:

Hey people , i'm trying to improve myself already .

LOLOLOL .


Had CIP today ! Yeeeehaaaa (:

Flew to East Coast Park ! Long time no see ah !

Went there to pick litters , actually .

But JW , KY & I were there to pick seashells . (:

LOLOLOL .

I was grouped tgt with JW , Vivian , Angie & Nayoon .

When we're on the bus , KY and I were talking about something .

Then Gallen & Godwin were sitting infront of us .

Suddenly , Gallen's ear stick out of the hole ..

( The space in the center of the seats lah )

Then he shouted .

=.=

Hahaha , then he began taking our pictures and video .

So , KY & I shoot him back lor (:

Funny bodoh !

Then when we're picking up the rubbish .. or litters there ,

I also dunno why ah , suddenly , Gallen's group & mine combined .

He is wearing red . & carrying a big big big big black 'plastic bag'

Like Santa Claus siah -.-

On the way back , Danru is like showing us all the prettaye china girls photo from our sch .

Then the 2 boys with the starting letter of the name G ,

Were busy commenting on it , I also dunno why .

Aaron is doing something stupid to Gallen when he dunno uh .

I video-ed it manzxz . Wanna see ? Come find me (:

Note to peeps who is crushing on Gallen ;

Your eyes must be damn big & You must only be 1cm taller than him xD

There's another one of this ... Untouched .

Okay , today was an effing wierd day . LOL , dont ask me why .

Had a nice chat with Mr Ho just now . Over at MSN lahs .

Maybe he's right .

Whatever i'm doing now is making me more stressful ?

Then , what should I do ? Sigh .

Come on , there's nothing left for me to do .

I gave up on piano . I gave up on Arts School . I quitted NAFA .

Now it is only School works , CCAs and some personal things i should be handling .

Sounds easy ? I payed attention in class for Maths & Science .

Shocked ? O.O

Yeah ? I realised that i actually knew nothing .

I have to start all over again ... If you find it funny , go ahead and laugh out loud .

He asked me if i know what i need most .

I said No .

Well , family love . =.= Come on , i'm the one who choosed to go

seperate ways with the others . The problem is on me , not them .

LOLS . =.=

My family is not family at all -.- It is just a title to me .

Just dont ask me why .

Uh-huh , RENGIE , YOU HAVE TO CONTROL YOUR EMOTIONS .

I know lah , alamak . I dont know what i can do already .

Besides hiding in a corner doing something stupid or meddling with penknifes .

Cool ? I've learnt how to cut straight lines (:

Cool ? So many peoples birthday in a row :D

Well , my birthday for this year is kind of special though .

I ORDER my mum NOT TO order any birthday cake this year .

I dont feel happy being a 14 . Shocked ? O.O

Haha , guess what ? I still haven finish the chocolates that Pehpeh gave me man (:

It's so damn nice ! He got me chocolates for both my birthday & valentines day .

Both diff one . Good taste (:

In the afternoon of the valentines day , after GB ,

Went to the canteen & crapped with JL . (:

Ooops , didnt go out on that evening to watch movie with him =X

Hahaha , I'm busy . He is busy too (:

Hahaha , maybe not . Maybe he's busy doing shopping with HER siah xD

Hahaha , then on sunday , which is yesterday ,

I'm also too busy to watch movie with Pehpeh xD

So , i didnt go lor ! :D

I love the tigger from KAIYUN :D

I love the monkey ( BOY) from JUEYU :D

I love the monkey (GIRL) from SAMANTHA :D

I love the dog (ONI) from ANGELA :D

I love ... ehy , alot more to say siah ! =X

I love the handshakes given by ...

the fellow 2Fs & crazy ppl from 2I like .....

Shall not say their name out man :D They sang birthday song damn loudly siah :D

Happy though (:

Well , a broke down last friday . Awww .

Anyway , Evelyn's top is wet wet wet =X

Who ask her to hug me -,- So , it is not my fault lah (:

Amirul , lucky you , your top is nice & dry (:

Kaiyun , Evelyn , Jolene , Cheryl , Bryan & Amirul , wo ai si ni men le lah (:
Pretend you guys didnt see anything uh =X

This morning , Thamtham was damn funny can ?!

She volunteered to carry my bags for me siah (:

Hahaha , but sometimes , i still can feel the pain inside T.T

Nvm , i 101% can get use to it man ! The pain will be gone soon :D
Lucky this operation no scar ah , if not i see le also jue de tong =X

FELICIA LIMLIMLIMLIM :D
Tmr jiu 16 le siah , i jealous T.T

Can watch NC16 movie le ! Arghhhh , i still have got 2 more years to go !

ROARS .

Felicia ah Felicia , dont xue wo ma zhang hua , not good (:

Dont come back & shoot me why i still ma hor !

Cause , wo hen stress :D Hehehe , gen ni bu yi yang . Wo special =X

You still want Cookies huh ? :D 100% give you lah , ehy , that JL say it's sweet .

But he still want more . Funneh ? :D

You 2 very crazy leh , you 2 can go crazy tgt manssssss xD

Oooops .

I didnt say anything ah :D

Love is missing someone whenever you're apart ,
but somehow feeling warm inside because you're close in heart

One last thing before i go off .
You are a muthafucking materislistic asshole .

It is not reffering to anyone . I just feel like saying it , thats why :D

Piang ehs , i just said that i'm getting better hor ......

THEN YOU KNOW WHAT ?! I'M SICK LIKE SUDDENLY ?!

Nvm , as long as i dont cough , it is okay ! Very very okay :D

fuck man , i can feel hor -.- IDIOT .

Cool anot .. You peeps comfirm dont think that RENGIE will fail her test(S)

Anyway , not surprising lah xD

Should i leave Northrbooks for Singapore arts school ?

- Stop taking note of what is going on .

- Stop work .

- Stop thinking .

- Stop causing troubles to myself & family .

- Stop being a petient of Pnuemonia .

- Wish that everything is none of my business .

- Just grow up .

- Wished that i wasnt sent to this world .

Why am i being brought to this world ? Fcuk =.=

I've fought with Sissy & my parents this morning .

So do you guys really thinks that i'm impt ?

Sorry , i dont think so .

Just stop wasting yout precious time concerning me .

I know what i want , i know what to do .

I know i'm ruining myself by relying on S.P !

Do you guys thinks that i really want it ?

I HAVE NO CHOICE .

NO CHOICE !

I'm happy . Because i know that i'm getting better . (:

I'm happy . Because i think i really know what i need now . (:

I'm happy . Because the smiles on each and everyone's face gave me hope . (:

I'm happy . Because i know that i'm not alone . (:

I'm happy . I am really happy . (:

So just stop asking me about my future .

Stop asking me if i need anything from you guys .

I want to be someone who can take care of myself . (:

Sissy , I know you care , but please , let me make my own decision , please .