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November 28, 2009, 11/28/2009

This might most probably end up being a 'LOL' kind of entry .

So .. Continue raeding if you want to ! :D

Or you could stop here .

I feel wierd & i've got many many thoughts today .

While facing a piece of drawing paper , holding a pencil on my hand ,

I thought about myself and discovered many problems .

( That's not suppose to be the way la , i planned to draw . )

When it comes to love , i think i am selfish .

I want everything which i can get , from you .

Especially your time (:

I want everything , & i want you all to myself .

( & I realised it's because of that , you tend to get really impatient with me ,

& thus the both of us have emotion changes . )

I want you so much , but i'm too stubborn to tell you .

Not that i expect you to be by my side for 24/7 all day long la .

& it's not necessary for you to be by my side anyway (:

I just hope that you'd always be there to keep me entertained ,

Whenever possible .

And you'd always be there to listen to my rants , cheer me up :D

( Ya right , who'd sit with me 24/7/365? Its so boring , its so 'no life' ! Agreed ? )

Sometimes , i dont care whether you're bored or not .

( Because i'm really stubborn ! )

I may have troubled you , disturbed you or even interupted you .

But i really wish we could have good chats like before (:

It's not hard to get it done , please ?

( I mean , if you feel for me , you won't mind spending a little time on me , right ? )

I want someone who'd never leave me , EVER .

Like someone who'd accept me for who i am , a really really bland and boring person .

Someone who'd never spend more than a minute looking at other girls .

( I know that's like , impossible -.-)

Someone who'd accept me for my ugliness and stuff .

Or even better, find beauty in every single thing i have , like ... My face xD

Someone who thinks that i'm not bland & not boring at all .

I need you so badly , but i dont say a word to you on this .

I dont know it is the pride barriel or something , it just gets in the way .

Or maybe i'm shy(?) or im afraid of awkwardness or something .

I dont know , i think i make myself sound weird .

And that's why i DONT REALLY like to initiate online conversations .

( To you , i just can't stop myself but to be the ice-breaker . )

Same applies for sms .

But sometimes , i want you to talk to me .

So much , so much . But i dont say it out .

And thats why i'm good at waiting . So good that i can wait without complaining .

I wait for things to happen , like , for my phone to vibrate ,

Be it it's a missed call or a short and simple sms .

I'm waiting for you to initiate the conversation of the day .

I know the day surely come . It's just that i do not know when .

I want so much , but i'm afraid to ask . I think i'm really wierd .

I spend alot of my time wondering what happened ,

What have i done that things changed ,

WHY IS IT THAT I ONLY REALISE ALL THESE THINGS NOW !

I hope that it's not too late . I want to 'repair' this .

But actually , when i think about it , i had you .

But you got sick of me , i guess .

( I'm so selfish to want to have you all by myself that i caused you to get tired with me .)

See ? I'm not a nice person .

I'm the selfish person who ask for so much from you .

But come to think about it , i dont deserve to get what i want .

I'm sorry , and i hope it's never too late to start over again (:

I shall wait for miracle to happen .

I ♥ you , yes i really do :D

I just dare not say this out , to you .

Poof , i've finally let down the stone in my heart :D

I spend the time , the effort to type all the entries out word by word ,

Letter by letter . Please respect me , my words , my entry , my blog .

Just can't be bothered by those who copy .

Those who copy my entries , are just like duplicating my emotions and feeling ,

Into themselves , their entires and their blog .

Go on , find a way which suits you in terms of expressing your emotions (:

Thanks alot :D