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November 03, 2009, 11/03/2009

In this picture , half will go & half will stay .

Chee Hao & Benjamin stays while Xinyin & I go .

Goodbye 2INTEGRITY , Hi 3GRACIOUS .

The one who loves the least , controls the relationship .

Here is something to think about .

At a point of my life , it seemed like

"The least interested i am to a guy , the more interested he is in me .

The more i care about him , the least he'll care . "

Which also means .....

"If you like him more than he likes you , you'll get dumped by him" .

"If you dont like him as much as he likes you , he'll go crazy over you ."

I hate to be vulnerable in a relationship .

& that should explain why i'm talking about this .

I tend to always try to make myself distant and unavailable ,

& shows the "I-DONT-CARE" kind of attitude .

But deep in my heart im yelling "Yes , yes i care so much so much ".

& I hope that in a way or another , you'd know ...

And yeap , few weeks ago , i'm feeling this way again ...

This time , there is something different :D

I dont want to be the one who cares more .

( I think it's the fear of losing someone .)
Yet ,
I want to experience the feeling of really liking someone .

( Yet i can't do it because there's still the fear there. )

Please be more promising that i could actually believe in myself that I CAN DO IT .

It's so contradicting !

Go google on :

"The one who loves the least , controls the relationship".

Look into the forum ! It's true ! Haha :D

So how ? What am i suppose to do manzxz ....................

- Put in all you (I) have and constantly fear that he'll leave you (Me) one day ,

- Or act like you (I) dont care and never get to experience the pleasure of giving ?

Hey MONSTER(s) , let's talk :D