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May 09, 2009, 5/09/2009

And yet , another day of disappointment .

If only i didn't hop , if i didn't see , if i didn't know ..

It all wouldn't happen if i didn't care at all .

Damn .

The beginning of my day was rather stormy .

Dejected & neglected .

I laid my books nicely right beside me & upon felt being dumped aside ,

Not even one of my finger is willing to touch the books .

"I'll be okay , i'll be okay"

I don't know how many times must i tell myself .

Can someone out there just lend me a pair of ears to hear me ?

Why do i have to ask for one when others don't seems to ?

I am good at keeping my own problems to myself , yes i know .

I guess i am used to being all by myself .

I tend to always self-solve-self problem ...

Wouldn't it be better if someone is willing to hear me out ?

Wouldn't it be better if i know that someone is there for me ?

Wouldn't it be better if ... i can stop telling myself that

"I'll be okay" ?

Having someone standing by you , be it your family , your friends or your cyber pal .

Don't you think that the weight being placed on your shoulder is so much lighter ?

I guess i have to be all by myself again ..

At once , i lost my great buddies .

They meant so much yet nothing .

Unlike you , part of me still feels the pain inside .

But i don't understand why i am always being dumped aside by you .

I will not be affected by it if it is someone else .

But now i am .

Because that person is you .

Pardon me for that oh-so-not RENGIE entry .

I hope by doing this , i'll get better .

Thanks for listening to me , readers .

Thanks koei , <3